My Lupus is atypical because it is ‘internet typical’
It was vital for me to provide an overview of Systemic Lupus Erythematosus (SLE or Lupus). Not only because it was a pretty hefty sum of information on its own, but also because you needed to understand about the illness as it typically is discussed. I referred close to the end of the text about how it can vary for individuals in how aggressive it is and the specifics of how it occurs within the body. I did this for a very important reason and that is this:
There is no typical Lupus patient.
There is no predictable or likely progression of milestones for this illness. There is no standard treatment plan. I know this is true of many illnesses but I am confident in saying although, not wanting to be insulting, most illnesses are vastly more predictable or treatable.
I have been living with this chronic autoimmune mixed connective tissue disease since 2009. That crazy week when I approached my GP (General Practitioner/ Doctor) complaining of pain and lethargy similar to my boyfriends. That cheeky fortunate fellow got off lightly with Glandular Fever and I went through a round of tests and specialists appointments to come out ten days later with a delayed diagnosis of Bell’s Palsy and Rheumatoid Arthritis.
And to think I haven’t even got to my favourite part. The part where I take care of my mother.
But I jump ahead.
Patty, the Rheumatology specialist my GP Evs had sent me to had taken a lot of blood out of me. You may have noticed and felt rather unsatisfied at the oblique and vague way I had left my post on that second visit to the Rheumatologist (Patty). It was largely due to the below story intertwining in with it and me wanting to build suspense. (I wonder if it worked?)
Like I mentioned above, everything was happening fast. My mother had worked in the past in a doctors surgery and it was an unspoken truth that if you have a tests that are rushed and you get priority placing to be slotted in to specialist physicians then the situation needs to be attended to as soon as possible.
Shit is getting real.
So my mother packed a bag and drove to Perth. She wasn’t going to send a family representative in to another appointment with me and I certainly wasn’t going in alone, so we would go together. It was a rather pleasant appointment, in my opinion. We walked in. Pat greeted us and spoke of the weather and his view of the river (I may have instigated that). Pat took out my file and the numbers rolled off his tongue. I’m not sure what for, I didn’t then and can’t recall them now. You can guess the words at the end of his breath though.
“The lab results show you have high inflammation and a lot of antibodies in your blood Jess. All of the blood work indicates you have an autoimmune disorder called Systemic Lupus Erythematosus and you also have Rheumatoid Arthritis. Your platelet count is okay though, so you needn’t worry about the Idiopathic Thrombocytopenic Purpura. I will give you some documentation both of these illnesses to take home and we will of course be seeing each other a lot as I will have to manage your new medications until we have things under control. Do you have any questions?
He answered and told us more about both.
“Okay so I will see you in two weeks, when you have started the medicine. But Jess, try not to look this up on the internet until you have read my papers. It looks a lot worse than what it actually is online. Especially not Wikipedia.”
Then we left the room.
In the ten steps to the reception desk my mother broke out in tears. (I told you I had to care for her.) I felt a weight was off my shoulders. I had been sick all my life with more little niggling troubles than anyone I knew. It was a relief to know that everything had happened for a reason and it may finally become manageable. Even just knowing would make me fight with conviction. The SLE was clearly the cause of my body destroying my platelets, as well as the red markings on my face and the sensitivity of my skin to bright lights and the sun. It curiously even explained the missing half of my eyebrow.
I mentioned that no two SLE or even Lupus sufferers are the same. Some have the acute form which means they only experience one or two minor flares at ‘crucial’ points in their life. Some have one or two ongoing ailments that are mostly manageable with ongoing medications. The internet tends to have a lot, and is why I was advised to avoid it, because it cannot omit anything. If it omits anything then the author is liable for any subsequent consequences. They also need to list any likely or possible outcomes to be reliable for people needing more information and assistance. Textbooks tend to be more reliable, and yet still have gaping holes in the knowledge due to the enormity of possible afflictions of Lupus on an individual.
As the research suggests, there are perhaps over 5 million people worldwide with Lupus and it is not rare. Yet actual numbers cannot be confirmed because some sufferers will not be impacted by the illness enough to warrant seeking medical attention, it may only be an acute form or may not flare for a long period of time.
What you will read online about individuals experiences, such as mine, come from the typical cases of Lupus. The ones that are bad enough that we cannot sit in silence and exist alone in our pain and emotional upheavals. My favourite description of my health is:
My Lupus is atypical because it is ‘internet typical’
This means that Lupus doesn’t often occur as aggressively, long-term or spontaneously as you will read about in This Lupus Life. To date:
Clots too much
Blood vessels swell and cut of blood flow in my brain
Destroys synovial fluid
Creates too much synovial fluid
Creates too my calcium in my kidney
Doesn’t know how to transmit neural messages correctly
Forgets how to use the left side of the body
Hasn’t regained all of my childhood memories
Demands 10 hours of sleep a night
But it’s my body, and I live in it. It’s where I spend the vast majority of my time. It’s not perfect, but it’s mine.